12/30

year end 2020.

i'm not where i want to be. not with who i thought i would be with.

not with my soulmate.

did hold onto the house and what's left of my body and self respect.

did not hold onto my promise to always be safe in my own home.

had to take money from ray's parents.

and then had to take money from my parents.

didn't step foot in a church, not once all year.

didn't step foot in a bar, not once all year.

witnessed a catastrophe of mental health up close in excruciating detail.

heard my mom give a testimony about her normal-sized ears.

married and divorced. almost as fast as britney spears.

i have never been priority #1 and this year is the jewel in that crown.