1/20

i did not expect to cry that hard at the inauguration

i feel quiet

i feel hurt

i feel fortunate, arbitrarily lucky, to have survived this long

dear sky

it is 330 in the afternoon and i'm not sober

i'm very messy and needing a lot of support

and you shouldn't have to clean up someone else's mess

and i wish i could be stable or together or supportive back

but i am full of problems

and you're so strong and smart and achieving goals and 

i feel barely human