october 13, 2020

i need to feel like i have a choice
i can't be condescended to
how dehumanizing it is to be told you have to be babysat
what should i eat
what time is it
should i take my meds
do i have to
can you say that another way
i control what i put in my body
i am not an alcoholic
i am not an addict
i am not sick
katy tried to kill me
katy killed tate
katy will kill my family

how good that someone else can make you feel as though you have choice
how good that you can decide you aren't an alcoholic while chugging beers on my garage floor
how good that you aren't sick in the middle of your manic episode
how good that you do not need to be babysat while you fail to clothe and feed and clean yourself