i like the phrase "leave me alone" because it suggests no action at all: that you should simply exit, and leave me, exactly where i have always been, alone. 

it is not enough twenty years later for the adults who were charged with loving me to realize they failed to do so. it is not enough for them to acknowledge that we have something to talk about, since they are not actually capable of speaking.

it is not enough.

"you can be flight or freeze or fawn if you want but i am a FIGHTER-- and i choose myself above your comfort, always."

is maybe the only true sentence i have ever written