that he doesn't get upset until i say that i regret the feelings that i have 

that i need to prepare myself to live alone, always, until i am done 

that i need to accrue enough financial resources to be able to purchase assistance when i need it

that i am not currently mentally stable enough to hold a job down to earn that money 

that 98% of all women get to acquiesce to partnership, but i probably will not 

always on the outside, always looking in