if there was a god he would want us to burn bibles for warmth when we were cold

if there was a god he would want us to eat his church when we were hungry

i abide by no rules that determine me to be less deserving, less capable, less worthy, less possible, than some words from a 2000 year old telephone

if there was a god he would have his finger on the scale at least for the children, at least for babies to not die, not be kidnapped, not get raped

if there was a god he would show up in Food Not Bombs soups, he would show up in street outreach workers, maybe he does today but hiding behind the shoulders of those doing the work. if there was a god he would be witnessable

if there was a god i would invite him to my house to see what small damages, what small traumas exist in a single life, if there was a god i would try to fight him

if there was a god i would chain him up in my basement and abuse him as i was abused because i never give anyone more than they can handle and i would make him retch up blessing after blessing for people i have never met 

which would make me god