I DONT THINK IM CRAZY
i do think i'm alone
i do think the people around me do not support me; some of them are allowed the excuse of years of training to not do anything to or for me
but now i am wondering if that's a sign that i am in the wrong place

if i cannot move the board, i am the wrong leader for the board
if i cannot be an equal partner in my relationship, i am in the wrong relationship

i feel gaslighted. how does everyone around me say the right thing and do nothing? how do we share these common values and yet i get to hold all the bags? why do we have discussions in which we mutually agree to participate in a project, and then i am responsible for its execution and completion? that includes cleaning the stupid fucking kitchen.

what would happen if i did nothing for anyone else for one whole day?