Self fulfilling prophecy

I woke up calm today. Do you know what that means? To wake up calm, after weeks of hurricanes and riptides, chunks of me swept out into that grey expanse. I woke up calm, and even looking something like myself again.

You’ve figured out how to look me in the eyes. You even had a whole word for me this time. And I? Have nothing left to give you in return.

For a heart so used to love, and then so filled with hate, I am surprised it remembers how to beat with no emotion left to turn the wheels.