this whole time my heart
could've been beating in time with the music,
what an idiot i am for not having known.
could have been breathing
with the bass line, could have let
my pulse fade into the drum beat,
could have let the music constrict and contract
all of these muscles for me.
if i had been simple enough, thoughtless enough,
blissfully unaware enough to have accomplished that--
if i had been empty enough--
what a blessing it might have been.
take me back, let me stand beside the speaker,
let me embrace the physicality of the noise
as a body in and of itself.