i regret being a ride or die person
i regret not making ray always pay more toward household bills
i regret not filing contested so that i could sue ray for half the cost of the divorce
i regret filing against anyone on ray's behalf
i regret time and energy and money spent on correcting shit healthcare providers
i regret every time i ever put principle or morals above money

the thing about ride or die is, if it's not mutual, you will die
every time