that if i could make you feel cared for—
seen—protected—that i would prize you
and your body and your health and your name—
that if i could bring you joy, or pleasure,
or solidarity or knowledge or increase in any way—
that i might be able to earn you—a rock, a
solid and magnificent ownership of self
and what is worthy—that if i could be
worthy of you—and your affection, intention,
your blessing or your time—that i could cede
idealism, or individualism, for the pride
of caretaking and reciprocating your love.