i have never been able to start writing in a new notebook at the beginning because i am not the narrator of my own speech
the first time i tried to write a book, i shrank the margins of the word document down to a couple inches by a couple inches so that my words wouldn't seem too weighty
in a world that tells me constantly to take up less space, the act of putting words on paper feels deliberately antisocial, against the rules of being social
insistently rebellious, the way i was when i was twelve
juvenile, pretentious, without knowledge or context
these are the ways that i think about the act of writing of my self