self-doubt
old older oldest pedantic flaw in parenting
what is self what is doubt
what is hating yourself
(but that is too extreme and i still know
that the future belongs to me)
excitement for growing older, where is it
and why have i lost it
complicated complications
money and time will always get the best of me.

i feel the pulse
here, between my hips:
here, between my ribs:
here, between my lips:
let's go grow old together.